Fighting Gravity

Distracted. That's probably the best adjective to discribe my state of mind as of late. We are a country at war, starving children in Africa, hundreds of innocent youths murdered in Russia, Hurrican Frances about to hit FL and I am distracted by rockstar boys.

Today is the Hafla in Niles. We have a group of 7 girls attending. I don't think this one will be as big as last months since there are not as many dancers. But there will still be good food. And I am all about good food! I'm hoping to perform in Novembers hafla. I'm still trying to convince my girls to dance with me.

RM is alive and well. That is a relief. I honestly do worry about him. He's not a destructive person, but he can get depressed and stuck in a funk from time to time. And I never want to hear that a friend is down. So, he claims he is good, and just really busy. That's all I needed to hear. Only 2 more weeks until I am east coast bound. It's been a year since I was last in NYC. That city whispers my name. I'm looking forward to the journey back. Less then a month before the HHF film screening. I decided that I am making too much out of this. I will ease myself out of this fret and work myself into the good vibes and energy that awaits me. October will be a good month. I can't let myself be caught up in this situation. I will miss the fall and all it's glory. It's September for heavens sake! I love September!

Today I will bellydance, clean my house, work on those appraisals, have fun at the hafla, hug my children, love my husband.

Today I will not yell at the boys, eat ice cream, worry about october, and waste time on the internet.

Today will be a good day.

Good news, bad news

The good news is I found a nickel and I named it Phillip! The bad new is, it's a girl nickel.

The bad news is that JR wont be coming tomorrow. Hurricane Frances saw to it that the airports were shut down today. Florida is not a good place to be during hurricane season. Guess where my brother is? :( Good news is that Liam and Fiachna will be attending the HHF film festival on October 3rd. Pleasant surprise indeed. I still can't stay for the after parties festivities, but I'll be there for a breath, and that is bliss enough for me. However, I'm not sure if I am prepared for that meeting just yet. I have a month to center.

I'm addicted to the internet. There lies the dark gooey center to my spiritual unbalance!

Paralyzed by work

I'm having a minor anxiety attack. Or it might be heartburn. There is just so much on the horizon, I can't see what's in front of me. Ever have one of those days where your to-do list outnumbers the number of brain cells you were allotted to rub together for sparks during the day? It's like there is someone sitting on my chest. I know if I step back and analyze the situation, I could ease these feelings. I just can't seem to get all my duckies in a row. So, I finished a couple of appraisals...only one more to go (for today at least). Granian's CD release party is just around the bend. But that's a good duck. I'm not sure where RM went to, that's a bad duck. 3 HHF shows and 1 film festival next month, that's a great duck? that's a bad duck disguised as a good duck. Lots of traveling in the next few weeks. I need a bellydance routine for class next week (bad duck!), there is all that eBay crap in the basement (bad bad duck), there is that entire 2nd house filled with garage sale fodder (evil duck!), JR is coming on Friday (let's hope..hurricane season) good duck!..oh dear..I could list a whole lot more ducks..but I'm feeling another anxiety attack. I think a healthy dose of the Sopranos can be the only remedy for now..